~::Simple thoughts::~

my real state of mind... 

Back then when I was a still in school, I used to hear my friends ramblings about how boring their jobs is, how monotonous there life is. All I can say I could say back then that life is like that and if you were experiencing like what you feel now, there is still a reason to smile and be thankful for you have a job and you get paid with it compare to other people still looking for work or non at all. Now, it gets back at me. Though I realized how lucky I am to be in my job, still I am feeling a bit of boredom. Focus is the first word I have to remember each morning and hoping to endure all throughout the day. Maybe it just low moments of ones job. It’s been 3 months since I rewarded my self. Maybe I should try to take another break just to see new environment and appreciate again what I have. Its not that I feel discontented with the job, I just feel everything around me seems so boring….aahh...I hate this feeling. Most of all, I lost my focus at times when I needed most. I have to ask my superior sometimes about the task they are asking me, I kept saying “come again sir!” o gosh, it’s really shameful but what can I do, I lost my focus or they are just too fast giving instructions. Above all, I also have this fear of losing my job noting that Philippine economy is slowly moving thus job opportunity is really scarce and politics adds another burden to all Filipino people…it seems this ordeal is endless. Do you think so??